So here I am in the 2nd trimester of the pregnancy, and I wanted to write down a little of what I was thinking. I am officially further along then when I lost the last baby, and my heart is full. I was really nervous about being down here in St. George, away from all of the wonderful doctors at the U of U and more importantly the NICU that saved Henry J's life. But I found a high risk doctor down here, who already has been proactive about keeping me pregnant. A week ago, I went into to have a cerclage (stitch my cervix close) and the peace of mind that has given me is priceless. Once I am 36 weeks pregnant, they will remove the stitches and my doctor said that most women deliver a week later, which he feels comfortable with. So that means we will have a baby early November. I will also start my weekly progesterone shots in 3 weeks, and that will ease my nerves that much more.

I've already seen the baby once (could see the little peanut kicking and squirming already) and heard the heart beat. Everytime the baby gets checked I have severe anxiety and get really emotional, which I'm sure is a result from my previous pregnancy. But I think within time I should be able to calm down a little and know that this little baby is strong and is going to make me big and pregnant all summer long.

Explaining to Henry that he is going to be a big brother has been a lot of fun. He already seems so concerned for the baby, and will pat my belly often and say that he loves him/her. I asked him if he thought he was getting a brother or sister and he told me it was a brother. I then asked him what his name would be and after giving it a little thought, he said, "Brother". At this point we don't really care what we have, as long as I can deliver a healthy, full term baby.